Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Miscellaneous Ups and Downs At the End of the Year

Well, it seems as though I am still having some problems with consistency as far as writing on my blog. Ideally I would be writing everyday. However, this has yet to happen so let's pick up somewhere around where I last left off.
I have finally caught my baby mouse. My cousin told me at Thanksgiving that I should tie a piece of dog food to the mouse trap so that they couldn't just drag it off of the trap without getting caught. I finally reset my traps accordingly and within a day or two had my mouse!!! I have a feeling there is more since this one was so small but we have yet to see any and I haven't caught anymore so hopefully this is the end of the mouse problem. Two problems solved this year, dogs are gone and mouse is gone!!!
I had my hida scan this past week and evidently my gallbladder is no longer working for me so I get to go meet my surgeon on the 29th of December. I was really hoping to meet him this week so that I could have the surgery during the week of Christmas and New Years but that isn't going to happen. I know it is a routine surgery and all but for some reason it is really bothering me. I know that I am frustrated because I have so many appointments to tend to the first week of January and I am afraid that Darein will be set up for more tests and that I won't have enough recovery time before tending to her tests. However, I am continuing to tell my self every day that things will work out and I will have control over scheduling things and I can make it work for us. Some days I think I just worry too much instead of sitting back and letting God do what he does best which is taking care of things. I will end up having to let go and only do what I can do anyways so there really is no point in worrying about it so I will continue to find other things that will hold my attention for the better.
The kids had their Christmas program this past Sunday night and they did a great job of singing. They got to go to a Christmas party at their youth leaders house afterwards and had a really good time.
I love Christmas time! I'm not always ready but this year I am ready, other than sending out Christmas cards which I am awful about doing. We went to my mother-in-law's house the other night, made some peanut butter balls and attempted to make some peanut butter fudge but it didn't turn out for some reason. We had a great time visiting and my brother dropped in for a few minutes and my sister-in-law and her boyfriend came by for a little bit. I am quite disappointed in myself for not doing any volunteer work over this holiday. It seems as though I always have the best of intentions but I am not very good at following through on much of anything. I always seem to get sidetracked and I lay my loyalties elsewhere, usually dedicating more time to family and extended family. If I was better at giving my extended family and friends more of my time throughout the year then I probably wouldn't have so much to make up for at the end of the year :) All in all I am very happy with how well things went this year. They started out quite rough with Darein being diagnosed with Chronic Regional Pain Syndrome; me having to quit my job; Damein having an allergic reaction to a sulfa antibiotic and ending up in the hospital with Steven Johnson's syndrome; Damein losing his place on the Varsity baseball team due to his illness and then rumors flying about the school that he isn't playing baseball next year in order for the coach to give himself a reason to not play Damein as much next year as well I am sure. However, now that we are at the end of the year most everything has resolved. Darein is in remission as far as her Chronic Regional Pain syndrome goes and is totally off of all of her medicines which was causing major physical and emotional problems for her. Damein has recovered nicely from his illness and is working on playing baseball to the best of his ability and not focusing on all of the negative talk going on around him in regards to this issue. He has started looking at colleges, made 1 visit to Drury this year and has a visit scheduled in February to visit Rolla MU S&T. He is also working at bringing his ACT scores up and continuing to research his options. I have adjusted to being home, am learning how to take care of myself a little bit both physically and emotionally which has been a hard thing to take time out for. I am learning how important it is though in order for my kids to get the best of me. It must come with age :) Shane has been great in all of the transitions that have taken place this year and is working harder than ever to make up for money we lost by me quitting my job. He has managed to make up my salary this year and as always is one of the few consistencies in my life. He is always there and always steadfast and a get in and get it done kind of person. He doesn't sit around and feel sorry for himself and doesn't allow me to do that either which is good. Sometimes, I get in those funks where I really feel sorry for myself and life in general and Shane is always there to remind me how much worse off other people have it and reminds me that we always have each other and together we can get through anything.
I have started going to church with my kids towards the end of this year and have found it very rewarding. I always have known God is in my life and pray to him but had forgotten what it is like to go every week and learn more about what he wants for me and from me in life. I have to say that I truly do feel blessed this Christmas season. I have been blessed with many friends, which I was concerned about losing when I quit my job but have only found that I have made new friends and old friends have been stronger than ever. I have learned what it is to be a friend this year and what a blessing your true friends can be. The rest is just filler :)
God Bless and I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year and may all of your New Years resolutions come true! My only resolution for next year is that it is as good or better than this year. My family has many challenges to deal with next year as we will be helping Damein to choose a college, I will be having surgery at the first of the year, Darein is having surgery sometime in February probably and will be meeting a few new physicians in January and February. I just pray that we meet each of these challenges head on and persevere through them and make all the right decisions so that at the end of the year we can look back at how successfully we were able to face these challenges and conquer them.
Merry Christmas All!!!!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Its Been A Long Time

Well, It has been a long time since I have written anything. Sometimes I think that you have to take a time out and live life in order to get the big picture of what to write about, gets things from a little different perspective. Besides the fact that my son hogs my laptop all the time and I have a hard time using it while he is at school :)
Since I last wrote a lot has happened. It is Christmas time and lots of shopping and present wrapping has been going on.
I still do not have any mice that I have caught and recently got rid of my red healer, Trixie so I now have no animals to keep the mice away. They did manage however to eat the peanut butter off of the traps without getting caught so I think I am going to set more now that I have no animals to worry about and one of my cousins suggested I use some dog food and tie it to the mouse trap so that they can't just drag it away so I suspect I will give this a whirl.
My gas problem in my vehicle appears definitely taken care of so no more worries there other than it is a pain in the butt to have to continue to lock my gas cap which is a royal pain in the butt. Hopefully by Spring we can feel confident in putting the old one back on and see how that goes.
My daughter has her first boyfriend! She wasn't going to tell me as she didn't feel that this was a big deal. I discovered this on Monday of last week as I looked in her backpack only to discover a homemade card that read, "I hope you have a Merry Christmas Hunter this is for you" and there was one of Darein stuffed tiger animals. I asked her who it was for, thinking it was something they were doing with school. She just gave me the look and roller her eyes. I asked her if it was her boyfriend not really believing that but just trying to get out of her who it was. She said, "yes". I thought this was pretty cute and told her that we could get him a real present if she wanted but she said it didn't really matter, it was no big deal. Evidently he had asked her out the Thursday before and on that Friday she had a dance. I asked her if she danced with him but she said no, he wasn't there. She only has one class with him, Art and now that her IEP has taken place she is being pulled out of that class for another class so she has no classes now with him. She doesn't want to talk about it and when I tried to pry over the next few days she stayed tight lipped. I finally had to make a deal with her that I would ask no more questions if she promised to let me know when they break up. She said that she would and then proceeded to roll her eyes as she does quite often :) She went to meet with her new orthodontist earlier this month and they will be working with her plastic surgery team in St. Louis to find out when Darein will be ready for her braces. As of now, she doesn't need to go back until June which will be nice.
Things are the same with Damein as he still stays in his room most of the time and only comes out to eat and go to the bathroom and to ask if he can go somewhere with friends, typical teenager I guess. He got home this evening from our family Christmas event, went to his room and came out 30 minutes later and asked if he could go to a friend's house to hang out. He didn't know what they were going to do and then before he left he grabs his airsoft gun so I am assuming they are going to play airsoft out in this cold nasty rainy weather at 10:00 at night.
Shane is still working as hard as ever and as Christmas draws nearer and he works more and more the stress on our relationship is a bit rough. However, all of our Christmas shopping is done except for 1 gift and a few other small things for the kids which is pretty early for us as we usually end up going shopping on Christmas Eve.
I won $400 at the casino though earlier this month so that helped tremendously with our shopping this year and took quite a bit of stress off. I don't gamble very much at all but absolutely love it and that was the most that I have ever won! I have been having troubles with my stomach lately though and it appears that it is my gallbladder. I finally went to the doctor, had my ultrasound and found out it was negative Friday so I will now wait until next week to see when I get to go for a hida scan so that it will hopefully show that it is my gallbladder and I can get it removed. I am hoping to get it done this month as after the holidays things pick up tremendously around our house. I have a feeling it will be January before I get in though which is fine as long as it is early in the month.
Darein goes January 4th to meet her GI specialist from Kansas City who does outpatient clinics here in Springfield. I am assuming that will bring more tests to make sure nothing is going on with her tummy and will have some advice as far as her GERD goes. In February we go to Kansas City and meet her urology surgeon so we can set up surgery for her kidney reflux and will also head to Rolla to visit with MU S&T college and see what Damein thinks of it.
Always glad to get things done and see things progressing forward but sometimes can seem a little overwhelming. I am very grateful that my husband's job allows for me to be able to stay home with our daughter. We aren't wealthy and we definitely have to watch our pennies but we have enough to pay our main bills and enough play money to be able to do things and just have to fill in the rest with medical bills as they will always be there and always too numerous to be able to keep up with. Definitely worth the sacrifice and at a time when our economy is in such a bad state I am thankful things are well.
In case I don't get a chance to write again before the holidays, I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! I wish you all good health, happiness, love and friendship in your life.